thanks for that piece of advice....you're definitely right! He is my only refuge......and i can say i'm better now....i'm on the stage of acceptance...and i've started to forget the bad things that happened to me....and start to forgive that someone who offended me.....and good thing is i can smile now....yung totoo! hindi na fake...hehehe! and hindi na ko affected sa mga naririnig kong whereabouts nya from other people......honestly di na ko nsasaktan.....

and i can say i indeed learned from it......realized a lot of things i'm not aware of when im still head over heels in love...hehehe! someone say love is just a state of mind(from a sup)....you're hurt because that's what you think of....guess i'm starting to believe him...hehehehe!

yah...sometimes you really have to encounter these stuffs for you to learn and for you to become a stronger person......and indeed, it made me stronger! i'm not that same- weak- me.....

as the song goes..."you've made me stronger by breaking my heart....you've ended my life and made a better one start! "

how ironic ayt?

i thought i can't live without that someone i love more than myself...but i never thought life could be easier without him....too bad ngayon ko lng narealize......sayang ng miles....hahahahaha!

SANA NGA NDI NA AKO NAGISING...

I WANNA DIE...

EVERYTHING IS LOST...

i don't know what to do, no, i know what to do, it's just that my heart says don't do it...

(JUST WANT TO SHARE THE SONG I'VE
WRITTEN)
i remember the day you left me the pain
was too much to bear
my heart was torn into pieces
there's no more tears left to cry
i tried to convince myself that it's
through
but everytime i sleep the memory of you
haunts me
my mind is battling with my heart
i want to let myself believe
that i forget about you
but i can't...i can't...really can't!
why do you have to leave me this way?
my hopes and dreams were shattered
since the day you said goodbye
now i feel numb and lifeless
there's no more reason to go on
i want to hate you
for all the hurt you gave me
but i can't..i can't...still can't!
why do you have to leave me this way?
i know i can't weep for the rest of my
life
i know someday i'll forget about you
and someday i'll find the courage to
stand up from this fall...

(know what guys i find it hard to learn
the art of letting go...it's as if i'm
losing out of track...no direction...no
compass...no bearing...as if i'm
crashing into things a lil crazy i
guess...but i hope someday this will
come to pass...

hahahaha.......good to hear that! atleast i'm not alone.....lolz!
and it's not easy to trust someone again thinking that he/she may just do the same thing....db?
pero atleast i'm happy because i've been awaken from a deep sleep....know what i mean,ryt?

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of
everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along
their way. The brightest future will always be based on a
forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of
your past failures and heartaches....



“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” (taken from a friend's blog)